Space

I’ve given you space
Kept my distance
I think that’s what you wanted
The details are hazy now
I’m not sure
How we left it so long ago

I’ve given you space
For such a long time
But the memories feel like yesterday
A time so different than now
But still a time so recent
It all blurs together in my mind

I’ve given you space
In the hopes that you wouldn’t hurt
At least not as badly
I know I hurt you
And I begin to understand
That hurt doesn’t begin to describe

I’ve given you space
But don’t believe it was without cost
Don’t think for a second
That I don’t hurt too
It’s gotten easier over time
But it has never been easy

I’ve given you space
But I think about you every day
Some days are worse than others
Living without you still feels so strange
There are times I want to take it back
But it’s too late now

I’ve given you space
Because I respect your choices
Because I know that I am not welcome
I have betrayed you
And hurt you
And I am truly sorry

I’ve given you space
And kept my distance
And you have forgiven me
Though I don’t think you understand
But all I can do now
Is try to move on